I want you but I know that I can’t.

When I met Phil on a London escorts date, I knew that he was the man that I had dreamed of my entire life. I would not normally date men I have met at London escorts privately, but Philip was different. We had so much in common and could not stop talking. I should really have said to him that I was only available through London escorts, but I could not bring myself to do it. I simply wanted so much more than I could get at London escorts.

But, even though I was desperate to be with Phil, I knew that it was not right. Every time I had a few days off from London escorts, I did take time out to spend with him. But as we were sitting in my bathtub together, I could not see anything but that wedding ring of his. I had sworn that I would never form a long term relationship with a married man. Many of my best friends who also worked for London escorts had been in relationships with married men and it had never worked out for them.

I knew that was playing with fire, and could not let go of that feeling. I was desperate to love this wonderful man with my entire body and soul, but that wedding ring did hold me back. I would gladly leave London escorts to be with him, but I knew that it would be a disastrous mistake. Besides, I was not sure that Phil felt the same way about me as I did about him. Sure, he made sure that he could come around to see me when I had a day off from London escorts but was it love on his part or just passion.

One night, when Philip came around, I just knew it was going to be the last time that I saw him. I had finished my London escorts shift early just so that we could have an early dinner and spend time together. But, I felt that something had shifted on the air and that I needed to make a decision. I was certainly very much in love with Phil, but our relationship would never amount to anything. He was too much of a dedicated family man to leave his family and hook up with a girl like me. It was time for us to say goodbye.

That night after we had made passionate love and Phil was resting in my arms, I knew that I had to call it all off. I gently told him that I was too busy at London escorts and that I needed to focus on my career. If he wanted to see me again, he should really do so on a London escorts date. He was totally taken back and said that he would leave his wife as he wanted me. I knew instinctively that it would never happen, and I told him so. He looked at me and I could see that he was hurt. Clearly, he had never expected me to call off the relationship. It took me a long time to get over Phil, and to be honest, I am not sure that I will ever get over him entirely.

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